How wrong can things get?

You know, how strange it is sometimes the more you want to clarify yourself, the more mis-interpretations you are causing. Yes, today is one of these days. And the incident is making me guilty all day long. Guilty enough to make another apology during the night, but you know, how others say that it is never going to be the same again? I really think that it is not going to be like before. Hmm, it can be likened to the time when i accidentally dropped a whole tiramisu on the floor at home, and being the dirty fellow I actually thought that it was ok to place it in the fridge and eat it like before. Strangely, it is like the fall had, you know, broken some chemical bonds between the cream and the sugar and it no longer taste as good as before. In fact it looked too ugly to even eat it. I think i just have to let it go. It is really pointless to hold onto a smashed tiramisu and wished that I have be more careful because it may be forgiven but it is definitely not forgotten. I can almost feel the tension between me and the tiramisu and all that pretending to eat it, is so superficial. I guess it is time to look for a good pastry shop.